Okay since this is sort of my death sentence, I’ll tell you something that I’ve been meaning to write down.

In the beginning of college, I thought that everything wasn’t going to go my way.

Well, I was right about it.

Nothing was right. I felt out of place, my family kept bugging me about becoming a lawyer or nurse like all of my other classmates. I just wanted to be myself and find my own way. But the more people put pressure on me, the more I stressed out and the more depressed I became.

While browsing tumblr, I kept seeing a lot of people talking about thor and tom hiddleston. i wanted to find out what was so interesting about it, so me and my friend watched Thor for funsies basically.

After watching it, I loved Loki and y’know, just became a fan. Then, I found out that this is the tom hiddleston everyone has been talking about! So, I find out more about him and he’s a pretty great guy.

With Thor distracting me from everyone else, I felt happier and i felt more stable. Then, a major depression came around. If you’ve been on my blog for long, you know what I’m talking about.

I became suicidal and I didn’t and couldn’t tell anyone about it, except for my friend who couldn’t do much for me.

So, to distract myself from even more depression, I began watching Tom Hiddleston’s movies and shows. I fell in love with his acting and personality. I felt like a spark had been lit in me. Then he had all of these quotes and words and i just…I wanted to act, because I loved theater and I loved pretending. He made me realize that. He made me realize a passion that i thought was useless.

In a way, Tom Hiddleston saved my life by inspiring me to be someone like him.

I’ve always wanted to say it, and since I’m not getting another chance at it, I’m thinking, why well not.